Blessed by Amituofo

For a while now, I have always said to myself, I hand my life to the care of Amitabha Buddha. I do not want to think about planning my life anymore. Indeed, Amitabha arranged the best for me.

I have quit my job in Maica. Then I have also quit my job at Vangohh. For the first time, my boyfriend had agreed to both decisions and also to my third decision of opening up my own business in branding and writing. He said that he agreed with my decision because I can do these things well, these are my forte. Thanking him for his confidence in me.

Right Timing

My resignation had come at the right timing. Amitabha and the Buddhas of the ten directions are taking good care of me. Just days after I registered my company, Integrity Services, I found my mom on the floor, fainted by her dizziness. For the first time, I really felt the fear of losing her because this time, it was very different.

In the morning before I left to see one of my business partners, I had an uneasy feeling while I was praying at the altar. Visions of losing her kept coming up, and tears welled in my eyes. But I kept going "Amituofo... Amituofo... Amituofo..." to console myself and left for the morning meeting. When I got home, I realised that those feelings were not my own superstition. They were real.

Thankfully, Dr. Malik was at the hospital that day. He had seen mom during an earlier dizzy spell. Not stroke, but best to get an MRI. Dr Lim ordered for an MRI. All were fine, but there was a growth behind her nose, just below her brain area. Dr Malik and Dr Lim cautioned me for the worst.

Dr. Malik arranged for Dr Victor after a short discussion with me and my brother. Dr Victor took a sample of the swelling cells, and did a biopsy. Yesterday, when mom saw him for consultation before being discharged from the hospital, he confirmed our fears.

Amituofo Arranged Me To Be Around

I live with mom. With my new status as a business owner of a sole proprietary company that just started without much business commitments yet, I have the time and energy to take good care of my mom, to bring her to the different hospitals everyday for her radiotherapy and chemotherapy treatments and consultations. This would not have been possible if I was still working for any of the companies, and I would fear even more for job security while suffering psychologically with my desire to take care of her. I might just have a total breakdown.

Letting go of my jobs, I know that Amituofo will not leave me hungry. Not sure where the businesses will come from, but I am sure He will arrange clients for me somehow. I have good people around me, looking after me while I serve my one and only duty to take care of my mom. I only have one mother, you know how important taking care of her means to me. I will hate myself if I am not able to be there to care for her when she needs me most.

The Pressing Desire

For a while now, I had always wanted to find a job that will allow me more time to spend with mom. Working late and working too hard had made me feel suicidal at some point, because I felt that I neglected my mom too much. We lived in the same house, but I don't get to spend time with her much at all. I felt guilty, and the guilt cannot be compensated with the salary that I receive. I cannot hire a maid to be with her, because I worry about what maids do at home to the elderly people when the employers are not around. I prefer to do it by myself, but working for others leave me tired and short of time.

When my boyfriend said yes to my desire for resignation, of course I took it up straight away. Finally he allowed me to, because I was working so early in the morning and going home so late everyday. Sometimes I even worked during the weekend. When we had time to meet, I was almost always drowsy and begged for sleep.

Change of Lifestyle

Now, everything is different. I have just created my own schedule. Morning will be spent cooking and preparing things for her. Will also be doing things on my laptop. And I think for a while, I will only be able to meet with customers occasionally. This means business will not be as much as I thought it will be when I planned for Integrity Services, but there will still be customers around. One after another. Business will go on for sure.

Trust Amituofo

I trust that Amituofo will not leave me hungry and penniless if He had arranged for me this way. He knows the best, I don't. I am not the perfect one, He is. He will definitely arrange the best for me.

Amituofo.